SWAY THINGS NEVER END!!!!!
EVEN TODAY!
I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW SWAY I CAN BE.
sorry many who are implicated into my avalanche of swayness.
i should just sleep at home and stare into blank.
because everything i do or say will result in a sway ending.
now i cant even open yahoo astrology to check my luck today.
that's how unlucky i have been.
they say unlucky stuff should be left forgotten.
so i shall not list out how unlucky i have been.
i hope i will still have frens after these =(
and i hope all sway things end this second.
downnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
My convocation is finally over last week. days just zoomed past me. now i am left with 5 days to my first day of work.
Convocation day is meaningful.. my family went down to the ceremony and took pic with me. it has been something i always looked forward to. I am glad i did not disappoint my parents.
This time round, i did them proud! =)
but i din expect that day to be so tiring!
the robe is like 2 kg!
and the heels killed me!
i was super tired after the whole day!
thank you andre for the giant sunflower bouquent!
and the convocation dinner's quite a nice cosy affair.
it is amazing to see all ur econs frens dressed so formally.
and we took like 300 pics.. can go facebook and see k?
somehow i feel tt i might not see some of them anymore.. but i really hope to stay in contact with most of them. afterall they walked me thru many points of my life.
and to fairies.. i really really hope we can meet every week after work at mac donalds to motivate and update on each other. make it say every wed or thurs k?
i will juggle work and frens.
i will try my best to keep our frenship alive!!!
i can say my life is quite good now.
but something is missing.
i cant really pin point what is it.
a part of me is empty.
Convocation day is meaningful.. my family went down to the ceremony and took pic with me. it has been something i always looked forward to. I am glad i did not disappoint my parents.
This time round, i did them proud! =)
but i din expect that day to be so tiring!
the robe is like 2 kg!
and the heels killed me!
i was super tired after the whole day!
thank you andre for the giant sunflower bouquent!
and the convocation dinner's quite a nice cosy affair.
it is amazing to see all ur econs frens dressed so formally.
and we took like 300 pics.. can go facebook and see k?
somehow i feel tt i might not see some of them anymore.. but i really hope to stay in contact with most of them. afterall they walked me thru many points of my life.
and to fairies.. i really really hope we can meet every week after work at mac donalds to motivate and update on each other. make it say every wed or thurs k?
i will juggle work and frens.
i will try my best to keep our frenship alive!!!
i can say my life is quite good now.
but something is missing.
i cant really pin point what is it.
a part of me is empty.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
i can only keep believing.
somehow at the back of my head i anticipated something like tt.
but i didnt expect it to really happen.
URA offered me on Monday and ask me to wait for their call for further details.
Today i receive an email saying there is no suitable position for me?
Things can change in one day.
i pray to God that this is a mistake. it must be a mistake!
i will call tml.
and i will keep on believing.
somehow at the back of my head i anticipated something like tt.
but i didnt expect it to really happen.
URA offered me on Monday and ask me to wait for their call for further details.
Today i receive an email saying there is no suitable position for me?
Things can change in one day.
i pray to God that this is a mistake. it must be a mistake!
i will call tml.
and i will keep on believing.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
i have been at home for almost a week and i am liking it.
thinking back, the last one month is a bit too much for me to take.
i planned things to fill up my life.
perhaps i tried too hard.
it left me exhausted.
i guess the old me is back =)
But something in me is never the same again.
i feel different now.
i think i am stronger. i do things that i never imagine i can.
i am a happier and more frenly person compared to the past.
i am independent and i appreciate people around me more.
and one more thing i am glad is i exercise every week like a mad woman.
haha..
it's making me feel very fit.
i can run for one hour non stop now. one month ago i tink i will be crawling in 30 mins.
i love to push myself hard when i run. i think its not very good for my body. maybe i should quit being an extremist.
anyways going to run later again =PP
One new thing in life is my driving lesson on thurs.
okie i must say i am damn scared cos i don have any sense of direction whatsoever.
and to move a metallic object 5 times my size and 10 times my speed is giving me alot of stress.
LOL.
okie i am exaggerating! not like i never travel on a car before right???
i want to pass everything in first attempt k!
i don have extra cash for retest!
so i will be a very good and attentive student =)
okie i am having cravings for satay, salmon sashimi, chawamushi, samsui chicken, seafood platter, scallop siewmai, dragonroll sushi, steamboat buffet, stingray, sambal sotong, fried you tiao with mayo, fishhead steamboat, thai olive rice, double cheese burger, zinger, msia bak kut teh and the list is never ending.
can i eat them all in one day?
omg i am so hungry now.
MENTIONING THESE FOOD MAKE ME MISS LIM LI MEI!
WHERE ARE U?
.
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thinking back, the last one month is a bit too much for me to take.
i planned things to fill up my life.
perhaps i tried too hard.
it left me exhausted.
i guess the old me is back =)
But something in me is never the same again.
i feel different now.
i think i am stronger. i do things that i never imagine i can.
i am a happier and more frenly person compared to the past.
i am independent and i appreciate people around me more.
and one more thing i am glad is i exercise every week like a mad woman.
haha..
it's making me feel very fit.
i can run for one hour non stop now. one month ago i tink i will be crawling in 30 mins.
i love to push myself hard when i run. i think its not very good for my body. maybe i should quit being an extremist.
anyways going to run later again =PP
One new thing in life is my driving lesson on thurs.
okie i must say i am damn scared cos i don have any sense of direction whatsoever.
and to move a metallic object 5 times my size and 10 times my speed is giving me alot of stress.
LOL.
okie i am exaggerating! not like i never travel on a car before right???
i want to pass everything in first attempt k!
i don have extra cash for retest!
so i will be a very good and attentive student =)
okie i am having cravings for satay, salmon sashimi, chawamushi, samsui chicken, seafood platter, scallop siewmai, dragonroll sushi, steamboat buffet, stingray, sambal sotong, fried you tiao with mayo, fishhead steamboat, thai olive rice, double cheese burger, zinger, msia bak kut teh and the list is never ending.
can i eat them all in one day?
omg i am so hungry now.
MENTIONING THESE FOOD MAKE ME MISS LIM LI MEI!
WHERE ARE U?
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Every sinful habit in our lives gained its foothold through our thoughts and choices. We can gain victory over those habits by thinking God's thoughts.
A person who feels unworthy and unacceptable can replace those negative feelings with the truth that through Jesus, he or she has become worthy and acceptable.
Our future is determined by all the choices we are making today. Let us bring God into helping us make our decisions. In doing that it will determine whether our future will be secure and will have God's blessing on it.
God has gifted every person with certain talents to adapt to the jobs that are suited just for them at the right times in their lives. We be patient and it will come.
A person who feels unworthy and unacceptable can replace those negative feelings with the truth that through Jesus, he or she has become worthy and acceptable.
Our future is determined by all the choices we are making today. Let us bring God into helping us make our decisions. In doing that it will determine whether our future will be secure and will have God's blessing on it.
God has gifted every person with certain talents to adapt to the jobs that are suited just for them at the right times in their lives. We be patient and it will come.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
okie i am super lazy to blog.
short update~
i went 2 rounds of URA interview.
chances not high.. but i will just pray for the best =)
this entire week i have been rotting at home most of the time.
i finally picked up twilight to read again and i read and fell asleep yet again =x
and i went to run twice, once in gym den another one along woodlands estate.
i celebrated jianning and huifang's bday this month.
there are really alot of july babies!
and next up will be limin sarah and nicole.
i foresee alot of fun =)
short update~
i went 2 rounds of URA interview.
chances not high.. but i will just pray for the best =)
this entire week i have been rotting at home most of the time.
i finally picked up twilight to read again and i read and fell asleep yet again =x
and i went to run twice, once in gym den another one along woodlands estate.
i celebrated jianning and huifang's bday this month.
there are really alot of july babies!
and next up will be limin sarah and nicole.
i foresee alot of fun =)
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
today is the first day i am free in a long time.
i am staying home and rot today.
going to cook dinner tonight.
it has been so long since i cook for everyone
anyway the bbq tt day was very fun.
so many ppl turned up.
and they are ppl from all over the world.
literally everyone we noe.
and the food is good too!
i loveee the sambal sotong and stingray!
i really love bbq!
when are we gg to have another one?
i love the feeling of togetherness.. meet up and have fun together.
not bad cos we managed to catch up with old frens and noe new frens.
and i really wan to go JB for bak kut teh like now!
haha..
and i have a very bad craving now for steamboat buffet.
can we go and eat something sinful soon?
=ppppp
i am staying home and rot today.
going to cook dinner tonight.
it has been so long since i cook for everyone
anyway the bbq tt day was very fun.
so many ppl turned up.
and they are ppl from all over the world.
literally everyone we noe.
and the food is good too!
i loveee the sambal sotong and stingray!
i really love bbq!
when are we gg to have another one?
i love the feeling of togetherness.. meet up and have fun together.
not bad cos we managed to catch up with old frens and noe new frens.
and i really wan to go JB for bak kut teh like now!
haha..
and i have a very bad craving now for steamboat buffet.
can we go and eat something sinful soon?
=ppppp
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Passed my advance theory test!
First attempt!
Got my vocational driving license too.
Going to start my driving lesson.
One step nearer to driving.
and when i got my license, i just want a small car for me to get around, i'll be contented already =)
Yday was a happening day for.
met huifang in town for dinner den we go down dbl O. Juan, candy and meijing joined us shortly after.
Andre kenneth qs and pearlyn were there too, busy making each other drunk at the lounge.
For us, it was drink dance drink dance drink dance.
we dance until damn tired my leg is super pain today. i cant wear heels for 2 days.. haha..
and meijing is sweating like crazy.
an interesting combi last night.
hope there is more to come =)
Tml will be the BBQ at sembawang park.
haha really a mini ntu gathering lo. 25 ppl.
a bit too big group for one pit.
but its gg to be damn happening !
chicken wings+otah+ hotdogs+chicken filliet+ crabstick = MEAT
i'm craving for them now!
First attempt!
Got my vocational driving license too.
Going to start my driving lesson.
One step nearer to driving.
and when i got my license, i just want a small car for me to get around, i'll be contented already =)
Yday was a happening day for.
met huifang in town for dinner den we go down dbl O. Juan, candy and meijing joined us shortly after.
Andre kenneth qs and pearlyn were there too, busy making each other drunk at the lounge.
For us, it was drink dance drink dance drink dance.
we dance until damn tired my leg is super pain today. i cant wear heels for 2 days.. haha..
and meijing is sweating like crazy.
an interesting combi last night.
hope there is more to come =)
Tml will be the BBQ at sembawang park.
haha really a mini ntu gathering lo. 25 ppl.
a bit too big group for one pit.
but its gg to be damn happening !
chicken wings+otah+ hotdogs+chicken filliet+ crabstick = MEAT
i'm craving for them now!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
i am eating supper everyday!
this is getting bad.
and to reduce my guilt, i went gym today again.
i am gg to gym twice a week from this week onwards.
today i ran 40 mins on the threadmill.
hopefully there will be effect!
just an update!
i went for 2 rounds of ocbc interviews.
i donno if i can get it. but its a rather good practice.
i am looking forward to more interviews =)
tml is my advance theory test.
i am gg to fail cos i didnt study! even until now oso haven start. =P
and after tt will be partying with rss girls and frens =)
Yesterday is an exciting day
in the afternoon i go for ocbc interview.. den i went down to broadway to collect my convocation gown!
i nv imagine myself in tt gown. it's almost unreal tt i've graduated.
we took a few pics . heres a small preview!
this is getting bad.
and to reduce my guilt, i went gym today again.
i am gg to gym twice a week from this week onwards.
today i ran 40 mins on the threadmill.
hopefully there will be effect!
just an update!
i went for 2 rounds of ocbc interviews.
i donno if i can get it. but its a rather good practice.
i am looking forward to more interviews =)
tml is my advance theory test.
i am gg to fail cos i didnt study! even until now oso haven start. =P
and after tt will be partying with rss girls and frens =)
Yesterday is an exciting day
in the afternoon i go for ocbc interview.. den i went down to broadway to collect my convocation gown!
i nv imagine myself in tt gown. it's almost unreal tt i've graduated.
we took a few pics . heres a small preview!
After the fitting, we went down to PS cafe to chill out.
Limei joined us later in the night.
As usual i love PS cafe.
Nice ambience!
and thanks to SJ's treat, we didnt pay for anything.
thats the power of BFF =)))))))
i am gg to study for my test tml.
if not waste 12 bucks registration fee and a lifetime insult from frens. not worth it!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Last sat is ah ma's bday!
i just love my ah ma deep deep!
i love to just sit with her in the kitchen and listen to her stories.
i love to eat what she cook especially her fried rice.
i also love her soup too.
i love her becos she is a very strong woman and i noe she love me alot too =)
at her age she still go church every week. she read the bible when she is free. she spend her time gardening.
never had she complained about life. she says that going to church make her happy and contented.
to sum up, i love my ah ma =)
i was talking to kherray on msn.
she tell me that instead of focusing on what i didn't have and what's missing in my life, why not focus on things tt i already have.
Things like my family, my frens and this brand-new life.
it really hit me hard and made me realised.
i neglected my family.
i spent everyday outside.
reach home late and spend money that i am not earning.
and even so my parents still didnt rush me to get a job.
i am very fortunate but i did not realised.
I must find back my old self.
The once very happy bubbly talkative me.
firstly i am going to dance again.
i am joining a dance group, anywhere as long as i get to dance.
i watched Dance Subaru with sarah davina and kherray today. its really a very nice show! the girls can really dance very well! their technique is of cos very perfect and they really dance with emotions. i love the last part when subaru dance modern comtemp i was like OMG i wan to stand up and dance NOW!
subaru dance not for the audience, she dance for herself, with her soul.
OMG I AM SO LOVING THIS MOVIE.
and the hip hop part is making me damn excited. i wan to learn hip hop!
another movie i watched last night is "drag me to hell" reccomended by kherray.
wah this gross movie is er xin from the beginning to the ending lo.
i was covering my ears 80% of the time.
the sound system oso power packed.
at some point its damn funny i laugh at the show and myself at the same time.
and after my supper on my way home, two rat run towards me from a pile of rubbish and i jumped up and screamed like crazy!
one of the rat ran over my feet!!!!
okay i feel like dying at tt point of time.
but i am not too bad cos my guy fren oso screamed which was damn funny and entertaining, i felt a lil bit more brave at least.
thur will be badminton day!
i need to exercise cos i am fat from everyday eating of good food all over spore =(
and shopping will stop from this minute onwards.
i seldom feel sinful from shopping but today i feel very sinful.
retail therapy don really work on me.
cos i am still not feeling very happy now.
i wont shop for this week. =(
i just love my ah ma deep deep!
i love to just sit with her in the kitchen and listen to her stories.
i love to eat what she cook especially her fried rice.
i also love her soup too.
i love her becos she is a very strong woman and i noe she love me alot too =)
at her age she still go church every week. she read the bible when she is free. she spend her time gardening.
never had she complained about life. she says that going to church make her happy and contented.
to sum up, i love my ah ma =)
i was talking to kherray on msn.
she tell me that instead of focusing on what i didn't have and what's missing in my life, why not focus on things tt i already have.
Things like my family, my frens and this brand-new life.
it really hit me hard and made me realised.
i neglected my family.
i spent everyday outside.
reach home late and spend money that i am not earning.
and even so my parents still didnt rush me to get a job.
i am very fortunate but i did not realised.
I must find back my old self.
The once very happy bubbly talkative me.
firstly i am going to dance again.
i am joining a dance group, anywhere as long as i get to dance.
i watched Dance Subaru with sarah davina and kherray today. its really a very nice show! the girls can really dance very well! their technique is of cos very perfect and they really dance with emotions. i love the last part when subaru dance modern comtemp i was like OMG i wan to stand up and dance NOW!
subaru dance not for the audience, she dance for herself, with her soul.
OMG I AM SO LOVING THIS MOVIE.
and the hip hop part is making me damn excited. i wan to learn hip hop!
another movie i watched last night is "drag me to hell" reccomended by kherray.
wah this gross movie is er xin from the beginning to the ending lo.
i was covering my ears 80% of the time.
the sound system oso power packed.
at some point its damn funny i laugh at the show and myself at the same time.
and after my supper on my way home, two rat run towards me from a pile of rubbish and i jumped up and screamed like crazy!
one of the rat ran over my feet!!!!
okay i feel like dying at tt point of time.
but i am not too bad cos my guy fren oso screamed which was damn funny and entertaining, i felt a lil bit more brave at least.
thur will be badminton day!
i need to exercise cos i am fat from everyday eating of good food all over spore =(
and shopping will stop from this minute onwards.
i seldom feel sinful from shopping but today i feel very sinful.
retail therapy don really work on me.
cos i am still not feeling very happy now.
i wont shop for this week. =(
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
talking to myself
updates last week
monday - meet up with weiliang at soup restaurant
tues- mj at home and supper at xinwang with davina and limei
wednesday - make nails with brianna, movie with sj n chris - monstor vs alien, timbre then mambo with juan ling ding josh kai boon
thurs- sj phone repair dinner and movie - state of play
fri- badminton with ling juan kai ding heng and watched terminator in cine.
saturday- met zhiyuan for sushi tei lunch and free facial at ny skins (thanks bro!) and supper with limei and davina at xinwang again!
sunday - went jb with vone, hao jie, hua jie and jon. ate kway tiao kia, wanton mee, prata and drank 5 buckets. them not me!
yesterday - went cwp with bro and dad soup restaurant lunch, cook dinner for mummy and went gym with josh at night.
okay super fun filled and packed. i love what is happening to me now.
i have alot of time for myself.
i think this will be the last time i am enjoying my life like now.
how many times will you be not working, not studying, single, young with alot of frens?
everyone is only young once. i feel much younger compared to 4 yrs ago.
i have never felt so free.
Now i donwan to be tied down to anything.
i think maybe i have been in a relationship for too long.
i am lost in it.
i realised i din have time to do what others have been doing. what others have been enjoying. i lost another side of life.
i was young back then but i wasnt behaving my age.
i didnt like to noe new ppl, i closed myself up, i din like to tok to new ppl, i have these close frens and i clinched and stick closely to them. i refused to be independent, i relied too much on ppl around me.
i hate changes. i hate to adapt.
thats why it dragged so long.
too long and painful for any of us to take.
it's all my fault.
my indecisiveness caused misery to both of us.
back then i did not want to club. partly becos i tot it is not for me, i tot i will not enjoy cos i did not even try.
Now i promise myself i wont let time slip by without doing anything.
i will club when i feel like clubbing cos i find it v fun now.
not becos i want to get myself drunk, becos i just want to have fun.
not becos i am very wild now or i am a different person.
i drink more now compared to the past, but i don drink to get drunk, i drink and be happy.
limei say it is a passing phase. i think so too. becos i have the zai nu blood running in me. i will go back to my old self after a while, the ger that always read storybooks, go for dance lesson, stay at home and cook for my family.
i will try all new things, whatever that is being thrown at me. (of cos not drug or prostituting k!)
i tried small news things like facial, manicure, go gym, hang out with new groups of frens to jb, mj with new frens.
and i wont stop here.
i will go day and night cycling with limei n frens, i want to stay over in cj house in msia for a few days. i wan to go somewhere cheap and fun out of spore for a short holiday.
and frens if you think that the change in me is too drastic, i'm sorry to have shocked u or even disappointed u.
i think i am so lost and trying to find myself back.
its never easy. learning how to stand on ur own after 4 yrs. easier for guys i think.
and those frens who have been through, i'm glad that you understand.
i am afraid that ppl judge me differently now.
but now i noe, i just have to account to god and myself.
i am different. but different does not necessary means bad.
so i am not gg to be pessimistic.
i am stronger than i tot i can be.
so i am gg to lead a better life.
on my own =)
monday - meet up with weiliang at soup restaurant
tues- mj at home and supper at xinwang with davina and limei
wednesday - make nails with brianna, movie with sj n chris - monstor vs alien, timbre then mambo with juan ling ding josh kai boon
thurs- sj phone repair dinner and movie - state of play
fri- badminton with ling juan kai ding heng and watched terminator in cine.
saturday- met zhiyuan for sushi tei lunch and free facial at ny skins (thanks bro!) and supper with limei and davina at xinwang again!
sunday - went jb with vone, hao jie, hua jie and jon. ate kway tiao kia, wanton mee, prata and drank 5 buckets. them not me!
yesterday - went cwp with bro and dad soup restaurant lunch, cook dinner for mummy and went gym with josh at night.
okay super fun filled and packed. i love what is happening to me now.
i have alot of time for myself.
i think this will be the last time i am enjoying my life like now.
how many times will you be not working, not studying, single, young with alot of frens?
everyone is only young once. i feel much younger compared to 4 yrs ago.
i have never felt so free.
Now i donwan to be tied down to anything.
i think maybe i have been in a relationship for too long.
i am lost in it.
i realised i din have time to do what others have been doing. what others have been enjoying. i lost another side of life.
i was young back then but i wasnt behaving my age.
i didnt like to noe new ppl, i closed myself up, i din like to tok to new ppl, i have these close frens and i clinched and stick closely to them. i refused to be independent, i relied too much on ppl around me.
i hate changes. i hate to adapt.
thats why it dragged so long.
too long and painful for any of us to take.
it's all my fault.
my indecisiveness caused misery to both of us.
back then i did not want to club. partly becos i tot it is not for me, i tot i will not enjoy cos i did not even try.
Now i promise myself i wont let time slip by without doing anything.
i will club when i feel like clubbing cos i find it v fun now.
not becos i want to get myself drunk, becos i just want to have fun.
not becos i am very wild now or i am a different person.
i drink more now compared to the past, but i don drink to get drunk, i drink and be happy.
limei say it is a passing phase. i think so too. becos i have the zai nu blood running in me. i will go back to my old self after a while, the ger that always read storybooks, go for dance lesson, stay at home and cook for my family.
i will try all new things, whatever that is being thrown at me. (of cos not drug or prostituting k!)
i tried small news things like facial, manicure, go gym, hang out with new groups of frens to jb, mj with new frens.
and i wont stop here.
i will go day and night cycling with limei n frens, i want to stay over in cj house in msia for a few days. i wan to go somewhere cheap and fun out of spore for a short holiday.
and frens if you think that the change in me is too drastic, i'm sorry to have shocked u or even disappointed u.
i think i am so lost and trying to find myself back.
its never easy. learning how to stand on ur own after 4 yrs. easier for guys i think.
and those frens who have been through, i'm glad that you understand.
i am afraid that ppl judge me differently now.
but now i noe, i just have to account to god and myself.
i am different. but different does not necessary means bad.
so i am not gg to be pessimistic.
i am stronger than i tot i can be.
so i am gg to lead a better life.
on my own =)
Friday, May 29, 2009
We must not be double-minded once we set our course, since a double- minded man receives nothing.
We must not be like the fool who feeds on his folly.
This is a person who is continually mouthing his troubles and blaming others, including God, for his circumstances.
He feeds on self-pity and rehearses his problems to all who will listen.
We must give our heartaches and troubles to God and keep a cheerful attitude no matter what is going on in our lives.
We need to remember, "this too, shall pass" as God is eternal and has a good plan for our future.
We must not be like the fool who feeds on his folly.
This is a person who is continually mouthing his troubles and blaming others, including God, for his circumstances.
He feeds on self-pity and rehearses his problems to all who will listen.
We must give our heartaches and troubles to God and keep a cheerful attitude no matter what is going on in our lives.
We need to remember, "this too, shall pass" as God is eternal and has a good plan for our future.
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