Okay. This is surprising becos I didnt expect tt I can still log into this account. Reading my past entries made me realised how childish i used to sound. I haven't been updating this for at least 8 months. These 8 mths of my life not captured in words.

Compared to 8 mths ago, I am a different person. Hopefully in a better way. I've been through the lowest point, breaking point, turning point and now, I am happy again. It's amazing how much I have grown. (physically too)

I am starting to feel more at ease with my work. I can handle them relatively well now. And these 8 mths, I created miracles, did the impossible. I used to think tt I can never accomplish all these. I used to succumb to stress. I realised tt i am stronger than who i thought i am. Now, I'm stronger than any other ppl.

SWAY THINGS NEVER END!!!!!

EVEN TODAY!

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW SWAY I CAN BE.

sorry many who are implicated into my avalanche of swayness.
i should just sleep at home and stare into blank.
because everything i do or say will result in a sway ending.
now i cant even open yahoo astrology to check my luck today.
that's how unlucky i have been.

they say unlucky stuff should be left forgotten.
so i shall not list out how unlucky i have been.
i hope i will still have frens after these =(
and i hope all sway things end this second.

downnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

My convocation is finally over last week. days just zoomed past me. now i am left with 5 days to my first day of work.

Convocation day is meaningful.. my family went down to the ceremony and took pic with me. it has been something i always looked forward to. I am glad i did not disappoint my parents.
This time round, i did them proud! =)

but i din expect that day to be so tiring!
the robe is like 2 kg!
and the heels killed me!
i was super tired after the whole day!

thank you andre for the giant sunflower bouquent!

and the convocation dinner's quite a nice cosy affair.
it is amazing to see all ur econs frens dressed so formally.
and we took like 300 pics.. can go facebook and see k?
somehow i feel tt i might not see some of them anymore.. but i really hope to stay in contact with most of them. afterall they walked me thru many points of my life.

and to fairies.. i really really hope we can meet every week after work at mac donalds to motivate and update on each other. make it say every wed or thurs k?
i will juggle work and frens.
i will try my best to keep our frenship alive!!!

i can say my life is quite good now.
but something is missing.
i cant really pin point what is it.
a part of me is empty.

Tommorrow is my convocation.
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The day that I have been waiting all these 16 years.
=)

OKAY!
false alarm.

I AM STILL EMPLOYED =)
thank you for the powerful prayers.
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i can only keep believing.
somehow at the back of my head i anticipated something like tt.
but i didnt expect it to really happen.

URA offered me on Monday and ask me to wait for their call for further details.
Today i receive an email saying there is no suitable position for me?

Things can change in one day.
i pray to God that this is a mistake. it must be a mistake!
i will call tml.
and i will keep on believing.

i have been at home for almost a week and i am liking it.
thinking back, the last one month is a bit too much for me to take.
i planned things to fill up my life.
perhaps i tried too hard.
it left me exhausted.

i guess the old me is back =)
But something in me is never the same again.
i feel different now.
i think i am stronger. i do things that i never imagine i can.
i am a happier and more frenly person compared to the past.
i am independent and i appreciate people around me more.

and one more thing i am glad is i exercise every week like a mad woman.
haha..
it's making me feel very fit.
i can run for one hour non stop now. one month ago i tink i will be crawling in 30 mins.
i love to push myself hard when i run. i think its not very good for my body. maybe i should quit being an extremist.

anyways going to run later again =PP

One new thing in life is my driving lesson on thurs.
okie i must say i am damn scared cos i don have any sense of direction whatsoever.
and to move a metallic object 5 times my size and 10 times my speed is giving me alot of stress.
LOL.
okie i am exaggerating! not like i never travel on a car before right???
i want to pass everything in first attempt k!
i don have extra cash for retest!
so i will be a very good and attentive student =)

okie i am having cravings for satay, salmon sashimi, chawamushi, samsui chicken, seafood platter, scallop siewmai, dragonroll sushi, steamboat buffet, stingray, sambal sotong, fried you tiao with mayo, fishhead steamboat, thai olive rice, double cheese burger, zinger, msia bak kut teh and the list is never ending.

can i eat them all in one day?
omg i am so hungry now.

MENTIONING THESE FOOD MAKE ME MISS LIM LI MEI!
WHERE ARE U?
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